I love this concept. I am touched when others allow themselves to be vulnerable-- i strongly believe it's will be a blessing to themselves AND to others to share the good and not-so-good.
so in "playing" along with the challenge, here's what's on my heart today:
1. my anxiety levels have reared up again. so frustrating and i hate the fact i struggle with this. i think it's something i will always have to battle. i go through periods of time where it's not a problem at all, and then times where i am convinced I.AM.DYING. (most of my anxiety revolves around health worries--- total hypocondriac here) I have been doing better this week but last week was awful. i was convinced something was terrible wrong with me (after a long summer of sinus problems) to the point it almost put me in the fetal position (joking, sortof).
But then i had an epiphany-- being anxious and worrisome, as much as it is a REAL problem, makes me the most SELFISH person i could be. i am only thinking of myself and not thinking of others. completely lacking compassion and an eternal perspective. since then i have really doing better...
2. Todd and I are getting used to this new school schedule and starting to do some plans for a future house we anticipate building in a year or so. it's been fun yet it's ALOT of work. we are really excited about this future home-- but want to be smart financially and drawing/plan wise as we build this home. And honor God in the process. We both have strong opinions so it can be.... interesting :)
3. Jonah is doing SO well at school and with his cast-- i am so thrilled for him as he adjusts to a new schedule and making great friends. He asked Jesus to live in his heart two weeks ago, the same weekend he got his cast--- one of the most precious and special moments of my life.
4. i am trying to figure out some balance-- especially with my time when the kids are at school and i am home/doing errands. useing my time wisely and figuring out the appropriate balance with housework/ scrap work/ other things... I am also a "room mom" for jonah's class (super excited) which brings more need to get organized in balance. Also needing to spend more time with my friends...
5. I started Couch to 5k three weeks ago and just finished week one today. sigh. Learning to include exercise into that balance thing :) and set aside time to work out-- i NEVER regret doing it!!
6. My sweet Jordan has become quite opinionated lately -- especially when it comes to picking out clothes--- learning to deal with this now. Also we have tuesdays and thursdays together at home alone-- i want to find special things for us to do together. even if it's just playing downstairs... soon enough she will be in school all day too.
7. Todd and I listened to a sermon the other night online (john macarthur). i loved it. the anxiety struggles can take a toll on "faith" sometimes-- more specifically, my relationship with christ. For instance, if you have a friend that you constantly worry if they are going to do what they say they are going to do-- wouldn't that effect your friendship? I guess that's where I have been with God lately. It's not Him, it's me.
Todd and I had an awesome discussion about it last thursday and i feel i am making strides in dealing with this. God is so good to me.
8. I read "Heaven is for Real" last week in 3 hours. Loved it to pieces.
the blog world can tend to look picture perfect... but this much i know, no one's life is perfect. Perfection resides in only God Himself. we all have struggle, frustrations, unexpected circumstances, mixed it with the joys and delights of this life. i hope this jumbled mess of my thoughts this morning may encourage you and know you don't walk this road alone...
My purpose is that they may be encouraged in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely, Christ, in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge. Colossians 2:2-3
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I love you, Jenni Hufford. Thanks for this.
jenni, i love this. love seeing a vulnerable you, it only makes me adore you more. and you know what? we have SO Much in common. :)
xxo
I love this post Jenni. Thank you. I am feeling the need to do the same.....
I'm glad I'm not the only one who thinks she is on death's door whenever she spots a strange symptom or spot. I always tell myself that I don't want to live in fear, but it's so so hard to shut it off and have faith. Love this:)
I, too, read Heaven Is For Real, and couldn't read it fast enough. That is what I want my everyday to be all about - the promise of heaven!
Thanks for sharing. It's such a nice way to get to know someone a little better. And it's nice to see other mom's showing the non-perfect side of their lives. I just finished reading "90 Minutes in Heaven." Totally amazing story! "Heaven is For Real" is on my list of books to read next! It's such a great feeling to know that if we choose Christ, we are going somewhere where there is no pain, no anxiety, etc. So sweet about your little guy. : )
Love your "real" post.
I absolutely loved Heaven is for Real. Amazing book and really makes you think about the "bigger" things in life.
i love honesty....truly, i love it. I love it when people acknowledge that while they follow Jesus they often struggle to do it in any way that approaches 'well'. I love your post. I truly do. and I get you sooo much. our pastor just preached on the matt 6 passage about not worrying. very convicting.
as to the health issues, there is a book that has brought amazing physical healing to my life. the list of medical problems I had before reading it was loooonnnnngggg. Now, I am sooo healthy. It is called 'Healing Back Pain' by John Sarno. Changed my life, might change yours.
Very lovely post. You have such faith and aren't afraid to say it! Love it.
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